well this is awkward :''D
I Saw this going around and I read a few and well since I really enjoyed reading those story's! I'll do my own too! : D....from what I remember~
NOTE: DEPRESSION INCLUDED IN THIS IT HAS SOME DEPRESSING SHIT IN THIS
Well ehhh so yeah!
My name is Iona Hofland , I live in the Netherlands and I'm currently 13 year's old!
My best friend pascalle a.k.a
one day showed me this site , deviantART.
used it for looking at photos and I found it an intresting site!
Not long after that I decided to make my own account!~
Without my parents knowing
so I was fuckin nervous as hell that they'd once find out and kill me//shot
But when I came on here I was an total DISASTER.
My englisch was.....absolutly horrible
the reason behind why ''Tiger'' in my username is writen with two ''g''s! c8 I just couldn't fuckin speak englisch.
before I came on DA I met someone on YT which was
She was actually the first actual friend I made here I guess
And I got more friends after I looked around on DA and commented on people's pictures!
Oh yeah...my ''pictures''...
My first arts where basically just ''names'' : D yeah , just plain red canvas with ''jessie the tigger'' on it
and when I could ''draw'' I did recolors :I....than I found bases....and THAN I decided I maybe could do my own art too! c8 <---genius I swear.
Oh yeah I didn't say but
Yeh I joined DA when I was 10 years old
so I was horribly underage btw : D I only got 13 this year.....
(ahahahah and here comes a kinda livestory part too~ : D dont need to read~ you can just skip ittt)
But so yeah I met alot of good friends , and also some ''fake friens'' on here : I....
While I was on DA I....well was kinda down , Im not exactly sure when it started , but I felt horrible , hated myself , hated life , and was down
One of the causes was my ''ex'' BFF , leaving me just behind. That really hurted me. She left me behind behind because I dressed black and gothic and just...was a bit different!
She told all my other friends at school to stay away from me. I was weird , they'd better not talk to me anymore
that's what really drove me into my depression I guess :\ I trusted her for more 3 years with my fuckin life , and than she did that
And that wasn't the only thing that happend.
I keep this short. But at the time there also was a really dear friend of mine on here actually who kinda.....well...for me , acted kinda trolling/mean to me with something n stuff //ikeepthisshadybcuzahahahah
not saying anymore about that.
But that really fuckin hurted me also , although we're still friends now //imtooforgivingsometimeslol
not sure or i'd also be so hurted my it in a time like now that im out of my depression but hey~ c:
So I was depressed and cutted myself with pens and hurting myself
and so well , since I was depressed as I remember DA also kinda slipped me a bit.
In end 2013/2014 I got dropped in therapy(hallelujah~ arghh)
I kinda hated it
and did not fuckin wanted to talk with her : I
I got out of my depression
it was not because of the therapy
she did stuff that was not helping me at ALL! and i found it stupid
I did it on my own strenght
But I also got more on DA again I guess c:
So yeah now I'm back : D
And i got better at drawing , learned new stuff , made new friends , met a friend from here in real
and now im alright and happy~ c:
And I dearly love all the friends that I have now
and alot more
that last part feels so recent still ugh u
So yeah now you also got to know some of my backstory hahahah//shot
and im not sure or you guys be like ''uh!? ene but...that isnt right?''
Idk |D......sorry im just bad at writing and remembering
this journal is long